Its 11.17pm now and i just want to ramp into this spot so that i could pour out all my feelings. I believe no one will be watching my blog, some probably, the ones who cared . Well, baby just got enlisted today. I am left with myself, and when i said myself means that i don't want to bother other people because it is rude. When i am with baby, i didn't care about others, so what makes people care about me when i am alone, right? Probably those two-headed snakes or those people who wanted to step close with me.

Sigh, i feel like a vampire. I could hide my feelings like nobody's business but inside me, i am pouring heavily. I don't want to feel accompanied not because i am emo or i have no life. It is because i have been selfish to others, so i don't deserve being treated good and nice. But when my emotions let out, the world will be dark.

There is a point of time when i really feel like crying out and hugging one of my girlfriend, but come to think of it. Which one is free for me?

Baby tell me that it is hell inside, he can't make phone calls, exception to today. What i told him was to calm down and relax, don't think too much and take care of yourself.

What happens to me in my heart was just scratches and marks. I remain like as if nothing happen just to let him have a peace mind, but myself, i pretend that i don't feel anything.

I will be marking down the calender day by day, trying my best to divert my attention to other things so that it wont hurt that much.

Baby, i miss you dearly..